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Marion confronts Tom about Patrick's sexuality

My Policeman

Marion Taylor’s confrontation with Tom Burgess about Patrick Hazlewood’s sexuality turns a suspicion she has tried to suppress into an issue spoken aloud within her marriage. Julia’s question at Castle Hill prompts Marion to raise the subject at home; Tom answers with emphatic denial and a description of the police’s treatment of men considered homosexual. The exchange does not resolve Marion’s doubts. Instead, it exposes how fear, respectability, and Tom’s connection to Patrick shape what the couple can say to one another.

Background and Disclosure

Before the confrontation, Marion has already encountered clues she could not fully interpret or admit. Looking back while writing her account, she identifies Sylvie’s earlier remark that Tom was not like that, and her own memory of seeing Tom and Patrick together outside Osborne House. At the time, however, she had pushed the possibility aside. The language available to her came largely from newspaper reports: stories about prosecutions appeared with such regularity that they seemed part of the ordinary news, but they gave her little understanding of gay life.

At Castle Hill, Julia asks whether Patrick is homosexual. Her casual manner, and the carelessness Marion perceives in speaking the word, unsettle Marion. Julia quickly recognizes that she has shocked her and tries to soften the question, explaining that she had wondered about Patrick when they first met but might be mistaken. Marion struggles to respond. The scene’s importance lies not in Julia providing proof, but in making a previously unspoken possibility explicit. As Marion later observes, the word has been uttered, and she can no longer avoid thinking about Patrick—and therefore Tom—in those terms.

The Conversation at Home

Marion returns to the couple’s small terrace on Islingword Street, a two-up, two-down home obtained through the influence of one of Tom’s colleagues after their hoped-for police house did not become available. She tells herself that raising Julia’s remark will simply give Tom the opportunity to deny it and allow their lives to continue unchanged. Yet she cannot plan beyond an opening sentence. At home, she repeats it silently while distracting herself with thoughts of a lamp and the tablecloth, postponing the moment of disclosure.

When Tom comes back and sits opposite her with tea, Marion notices how little she can see of his face during their usual marital intimacy: he turns out the light, and his head is generally against her shoulder. The observation accompanies a wider sense of distance. Their intimate life has settled into a pattern, and Marion has begun hoping each month for a pregnancy. Holding on to anger at what she sees as the injustice of the situation, she finally tells Tom that Julia said something about Patrick. She cannot bring herself to call the remark awful. Tom asks whether Julia knows Patrick, then waits for Marion to explain what she said.

Marion looks away from her husband and repeats Julia’s French expression. Tom first reacts with a derisive snort; then his face pales and his expression tightens. Marion briefly wishes she had said nothing and feels an impulse to comfort him. He quickly regains composure, stands, and demands to know what the expression is supposed to mean. When Marion names the stigmatized category she understands Julia to have implied, she braces for anger. Tom instead laughs bitterly and calls the suggestion ridiculous, insisting that Julia does not know Patrick.

Denial and Police Respectability

Tom’s denial is accompanied by a lengthy account of the men brought into the station. He describes men marked out by cosmetics, jewellery, or mannerisms, and says the vice squad repeatedly arrests the same people. He also reports that the new chief wants the force to clear such men from the streets, and refers to arrests in the public toilets at Plummer Rodis. His account shows that Tom knows the policing practices surrounding homosexuality from inside the institution; it also uses those practices and the stereotypes attached to them to distinguish Patrick from the men he describes.

Tom argues that Patrick cannot fit the category because he has a respectable job and has been generous to the couple, including helping with their wedding. His reasoning turns social respectability into evidence against Julia’s suspicion. Marion, however, cannot bring herself to challenge the argument directly. She puts the cups in the sink and reaches for food in the refrigerator, while feeling close to anger at Tom’s insistence that she accept his judgment. The exchange leaves the central question unanswered: Tom denies the implication, but his defensive reaction does not give Marion the certainty she had hoped his denial would provide.

Promise and Aftermath

Tom asks Marion to promise that she will put Julia straight. His request shifts the conversation from whether the suspicion might be true to whether Marion will help contain it. He puts his hands on her shoulders, kisses the back of her head, turns her toward him, and touches her cheek. The gestures, and the gentleness of his voice, drain away her readiness to argue. Marion nods in agreement, though the account gives no indication that her doubts have been settled.

Tom then turns to an ordinary domestic question about supper and tells Marion that her chips are his favourite. Marion expects the subject to be dropped for the rest of the evening, as indeed it is. That night, their marital closeness is unusually intense; afterward, Marion sleeps deeply, and for a time the encounter pushes Julia’s words from her mind. The reprieve is temporary. Within weeks, Tom tells Marion that he will spend every other Saturday afternoon as well as Tuesday evenings with Patrick while Patrick finishes Tom’s portrait. Patrick also visits the couple’s home with wine, and Marion accepts his offer to arrange an art-appreciation afternoon for her class at the museum. She says yes partly to please Tom and demonstrate that she has moved on, but also because she wants a chance to assess Patrick without Tom present. The confrontation therefore changes the terms of Marion’s attention: she has not obtained an admission, but she can no longer treat her suspicion as an unthinkable subject.